This too shall pass!

When I was a little child, my little problems seemed impossible to deal with. I apparently smacked a lady's ass for blocking my view in a queue. How frustrated the little me must have been! Years later I wrote my board exams and was extremely worried when I realized that my solution to a math question was wrong. I came back home and tried to beat myself up.Later I did not get into BITS and it felt like the world cannot offer me anything that would bring joy to my heart. Well, that phase passed and I got into Qualcomm and got married ... and... this and... that.... 

My problems in the past always looked small compared to what I had to face today. I think that's the reason  why they compare life to a journey. As you keep moving ahead things/events that pass by look so insignificant compared to what is right ahead of you.

Well, the point is, the phase ALWAYS passes. 

And no matter what you want, no matter what you badly wish for, what has to happen will happen. Call it destiny, karma, coincidence, whatever!

There will be a day when things will make sense, when the worst times you have been through will not feel suicidal, when you will learn to be optimistic and accept that it was not your fault and you did the best you could..... 

And this a cycle, the moment you feel good or are ready to move ahead there will be some other problem waiting for you! But you know what, good or bad, this too shall pass!

It is time for the NEW!

Yes! It's my same old 'New' year resolution... to continue writing my blog.
Its 2013 and my last blog update says .. "Monday, February 14, 2011".... What the hell?!
Its only now am realizing that I haven't been doing so many things for a looooong time, and what amazes me is that, the things that I have given up on are the things that I actually love to do!
So WHY did I do something like this?
Well, simply put.... Neither am I a professional writer nor a dancer. So unless I strictly keep some time for myself its going to take me another two years to get started on it.
So what do we have here? A brand new new year resolution :D
I have learnt that unless I don't keep in mind that I am going to be supremely busy this year too and that expecting too much out of myself will just depress me, I am going to end up making impossible resolutions.
So lets keep it simple!
So this year...every sunday morning I am going to lie lazily on my bed and write a blog... and am going to attend a minimum of 2 of my dance classes per month.
Go ahead and brew up some possible, practical, fulfilling and not-hard-on-yourself resolutions!
A resolution which wont hammer your head! :)
yeah.. well... if you don't happen to hear from me for a certain number of sundays then please expect a depressing blog to follow!

Fly high !

Ever wondered what it takes,

To put up a smile that's fake.

Forcing yourself to be glued onto a place,

While your mind runs at a faster pace.

Encouraging your child to give his best,

Knowing what follows is a bigger test.

A fine hotel is where you are expected to dine,

But you cherish streetside food more than the wine.

Reciting your prayer religiously everday,

Without thinking if you mean what you say.

Learning an art with total dedication,

While another being your fascination.

It takes a heart that's not strong,

One which does not object what's wrong.

You compromise and always lie,

Ever wondered why you don't fly!!

jhoota (aka shoe) hi sahi !

What was I thinking? And what were the people who wrote reviews for this movie thinking? I mean ... OH MY GAWD ! This is like the worst movie of all times.

I am going to be point blank here because I dont want people to be mislead by those "kind" reviews for this movie.

First I would like to talk about the actress. Pakhi Tyrewala ! The wife of the director (no wonder!) and also the scriptwriter of the movie :O :O

This lady (I am giving her all the respect right now because my criticism is going to make her want to kill herself!) gave a tough competition to John Abraham. I did not understand who should I blame for the pounding headache I was experiencing in the theatre. Its not at all wrong to be flabby or to not have a perfect figure. But its a sin to wear some sleeveless gown-frock-drape kind of thing and move your flabby arms around when you dont even know how to dance. For the love of god, atleast try ... TRY... to look decent.

I would not blame the actress completely for a movie, thats unfair. So I would also like to blame the scriptwriter, oh wait a minute, that's her again ! Argh, seriously ?!

And am sure Abbas Tyrewala was just too scared that she will drop him dead with that arm of her's that he did not even try to tell his starcast to act.

Now coming to the "hero". Why is John Abraham like... umm... what's that word... eehhh..... FAT!!!

He is not cute, he is not handsome and his hands now seem to be too small or rather not proportional to his body. This guy first of all never ever knew how to act. But still girls would watch his movie because he was handsome amd dashing. Last night, the girl next to me went "ewwwww" on a close-up shot of John Abraham.

I rest my case your honor !

I spent 150 bucks on the movie.. and then another 100 bucks to eat something so I would not have to concentrate on the headache I was getting and then another 10 bucks for a tablet !

So please... pretty please... dont do this to yourself. Save your souls and even if this movie comes on TV please just dont watch it. 

A Refreshing Experience !

Some images are imprinted on your brain forever. I was so amazed to view one such landscape.

I was really looking forward to this trek to Nagari. It was supposed to be the much needed break! A break from so many things.... And exploring nature turned out to be the best way to escape from all that..

I dont want to describe the whole trek like a Karan Johar movie ;) Just the best parts, because in this trek I learnt from someone that its best to not remember the bad things/memories!

So the "wow" moments are:

• I was looking down and walking for like 5 Kms. Trying to not hit my toes to the stones on the way and balancing myself. Suddenly the clouds cover the sun and I look up and there are these gigantic mountains with huge rock formations on them. Green lush forests with dead drop silence.Awesome.
• Holding a rope and crossing the waterfall to go from level 1 to level 2. Whattey experience! (People who attended this trek will know what am talking about)
• The night spent at the waterfalls ! Three of us were sitting on a staircase which leads to a small bridge across the stream. Just 20 feet away is the waterfall almost 40 feet high. Its dark and we have no lights whatsoever. The moonlight falling on the water... fireflies suddenly lighting up the scene from no where ... singing the song "kaisi hai yeh rut ki jisme....".....oh my god... There are too many descriptions but then I can never even get close to describing the reality. Trust me , am not a person who exaggerates ! 
• Swimming in the pool of water just below the waterfall. Well technically I was not swimming at all but then the water was so cold that I could not make myself to move :P
• The camp fire... having hot soup in the night and noodles in the morning !
• The porcupine quill we found on the way back , which was then given to me as a gift from the boys ! :)

It is amazing how this non tourist spot turned out to be so much fun. trekking is all about pushing yourself beyond your comfort level, exploring new places and meeting awesome people :)

I would also like to take this opportunity to thank the guys who picked up my bags and pushed me to walk when I was totally tired out and acting like a baby ! :P

Looking forward to many more !!!!!!

I am my worst enemy !

"you are fit for nothing!"
"Oh my god you look so ugly"
"you have a big nose and big feet"
"There are so many things you could not achieve in life, how can you still look at yourself in the mirror and not feel worthless?!"
Yes, that's me !
I try so hard to be polite to everyone else around me that I never realized that I was being rude and unfair to someone, myself!
I don't have much to say about this, but just that I have realized.
And no matter how much effort its going to take am going to kill this worst enemy of mine,my attitude towards myself.
It's only when I give myself some respect and love that I should be expecting it from others.
A big hug to me <> :)
It's a tough life girl but am sure you can make it.
Don't take any bull shit from anybody, not even yourself ;)

Trying hard to "live" !

It's good to feel that every moment of your life is precious. That every moment should be lived in the best of possible ways. But isn't it just too much pressure ?!
You feel like you should be doing something every moment. Read a book or may be watch a movie or study some books or go play !! It's bugging when you are not able to enjoy the idle time just doing nothing and lazing around since you start to feel that you are just doing "nothing".
I try to remember what I used to do as a kid. I had exams to prepare for and loads of friends to hang out with and when I had nothing to do I would just sit and laze around. Stare at the ceiling lost in some crazy thought.
Today also I have some deadlines I have to meet and some social functions am supposed to attend. But life feels very incomplete. The need to be doing more and making life more enriching occupies my mind all the time. I guess I just need to let go of it. But not as easy as it sounds.
It's not like I am not doing anything about it. But as adults its just very difficult to satisfy this need and be contended :P
Well may be I should just let go of this whole concept and do what i gotta do!