There have been so many moments in my life where I feel like my legs have been tied to some heavy weights and I am thrown into the storms of the ocean ..trying my level best to escape .. to survive .. but the burden is keeping me from coming up.
The feeling of helplessness is a torture.
You know what you want... but you cannot do anything about it. It could be because you are not the decision maker or it could be because nobody believes in you or trusts you.
These are the tough times when you either get frustrated and lose your temper on someone very close to you or you learn to have some patience in life and give it some time.
I truly believe that it is very difficult for someone to guess my behavior patterns because they vary like crazy. There have been times when I have yelled at people and then there are times that I gave up on thinking about it and decided to let time a.k.a God :P handle it .
Am stuck in a similar situation today. And i really really do not know what to do.
Things have always been good for me and no matter what twists the curve of my life has taken its always been a blessing. Today also am dusting myself and standing up with the belief that its all going to be fine! Its just this phase ,of not knowing whats going to happen and if things will actually happen the way I want them to, that really bums me out :(
Hoping for the best for myself and for all the people involved !
Monday, March 15, 2010
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Aam ras !
It's summer time and obviously am feeling nostalgic and missing so many things !!
When in school, on the day of our last exam we would have a class party(I miss the concept of potluck). It was so thrilling to see what food items the other kids have got for the party. The excitement of growing up and going to the next standard was amazing.I miss gobbling up so much food and looking forward to a happy summer vacation.
Summer vacations were about so many things..
Going to my grandma's place in Maharashtra... riding a bicycle in the afternoon without caring about getting tanned :P ...playing with all my cousins.. MANGOES !! yumm..
I would always go for a hair cut in the summer because i wanted to look "different" at school :D I remember getting a boy cut done once.. It felt so nice to not have to take care of my hair ! Maybe I should get one done again :P
I miss lazing around on the sofa and watching useless things on tv.I miss having plenty of time at hand to talk to my friends, to play, to do things my mom would never approve of. I miss sleeping on the roof at my grandma's place and cooking up stories in my head while gazing at the stars above.
I basically miss the plain stupidity and innocence of childhood and doing absolutely nothing !
I forgot to mention some things...
Dolly - I miss the thumping (:P) sound of your footsteps leading to my home and the non-stop laughing !
Kinni - ofcourse I remember and miss the Biryani at class party :D
Utsav,Anu and Matt - I miss the time we all spent together in the vacation after inter.. It was just brilliant !
When in school, on the day of our last exam we would have a class party(I miss the concept of potluck). It was so thrilling to see what food items the other kids have got for the party. The excitement of growing up and going to the next standard was amazing.I miss gobbling up so much food and looking forward to a happy summer vacation.
Summer vacations were about so many things..
Going to my grandma's place in Maharashtra... riding a bicycle in the afternoon without caring about getting tanned :P ...playing with all my cousins.. MANGOES !! yumm..
I would always go for a hair cut in the summer because i wanted to look "different" at school :D I remember getting a boy cut done once.. It felt so nice to not have to take care of my hair ! Maybe I should get one done again :P
I miss lazing around on the sofa and watching useless things on tv.I miss having plenty of time at hand to talk to my friends, to play, to do things my mom would never approve of. I miss sleeping on the roof at my grandma's place and cooking up stories in my head while gazing at the stars above.
I basically miss the plain stupidity and innocence of childhood and doing absolutely nothing !
I forgot to mention some things...
Dolly - I miss the thumping (:P) sound of your footsteps leading to my home and the non-stop laughing !
Kinni - ofcourse I remember and miss the Biryani at class party :D
Utsav,Anu and Matt - I miss the time we all spent together in the vacation after inter.. It was just brilliant !
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
It's all about a wedding...
I never thought that a single wedding will change so much about me,about the way i think.
I obviously cannot write down such personal stuff here :P so am going to just talk about the wedding.
It was my childhood dream to see my brother get married before me. No matter what we fought about he would always go like "you are going to be kicked out of this house soon". I cant express how happy I am. Earlier it was a wicked evil laughter but now am all smiles and happy for him.
Weddings are really such beautiful events. Its really magical how with so many things going wrong in the end everything feels right and everyone is so happy !
I dont really know much about how a marriage works out but I can tell you for sure how to have a perfect wedding :P
And wedding is not just the D-day but all the days that go into the planning of that day and all the ceremonies that happen throughout.
I never thought "I" would ever say this but am definitely looking forward to one wedding :D
For those people out there going " how lame !" or " kya?!" ... well ... i know :|
In fact i feel there will be a day when i will read this post and go like that myself :P
Anyhow...
Please feel free to call me to your weddings and i will be there right from where everything begins !
PS: Yes NOW you can LOL
I obviously cannot write down such personal stuff here :P so am going to just talk about the wedding.
It was my childhood dream to see my brother get married before me. No matter what we fought about he would always go like "you are going to be kicked out of this house soon". I cant express how happy I am. Earlier it was a wicked evil laughter but now am all smiles and happy for him.
Weddings are really such beautiful events. Its really magical how with so many things going wrong in the end everything feels right and everyone is so happy !
I dont really know much about how a marriage works out but I can tell you for sure how to have a perfect wedding :P
And wedding is not just the D-day but all the days that go into the planning of that day and all the ceremonies that happen throughout.
I never thought "I" would ever say this but am definitely looking forward to one wedding :D
For those people out there going " how lame !" or " kya?!" ... well ... i know :|
In fact i feel there will be a day when i will read this post and go like that myself :P
Anyhow...
Please feel free to call me to your weddings and i will be there right from where everything begins !
PS: Yes NOW you can LOL
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