Back with a bang !

It's that time of the year, every year,
I get an urge to write and my mind is clear.
I wonder if this is just a silly coincidence,
or is February the month my blog takes precedence?

I read through the old ones and a story emerges,
my life seems dramatic full of verses.
I dont have to ponder on what to write,
It's like recording my life byte by byte.

I feel a difference this time this year,
Like I have found something which is very dear!
My head feels light and my heart feels pumpy,
Looks like I found her, the girl who was quirky !

I feel motivated, positive and get the gist,
Happiness and problems can co-exist.
The joy is surreal and very divine,
O' devil mind don't snatch away what's mine !

Out of my mind!

I can feel the pain,
yet cannot shout in vain.
Days, months and years have gone by,
I wonder why am still giving it a try!

Something is lacking, something essential,
my life is locked with a missing credential.
I know what I want, I know what I need,
Is my fortune really all out of good deed?

Pages from my old diary are staring at me,
wondering how I landed in this crazy spree.
Cannot find more words to rhyme,
Paused in my mind and running out of time !

My cup of coffee!

Sitting on a bench at Necklace Road I am trying to recharge myself. Trying to zone out and keep away disturbing thoughts. Sometimes all it takes is a cup of coffee and a decent novel combined with a breath of fresh air to get back the kick. Life is definitely a journey, a quick one. In the whole rush of things there are moments of joy and then there are the low ones. But when everything stops, when there is no work to do or any task to attend to, one cant help but entertain the thoughts which provoke you to want more out of life. The urge to understand the purpose of life. There are very few people who I know can answer that question and I have got the opportunity to meet few such people. Who just know the purpose of their lives. Who are satisfied.
While others like me are too stubborn to accept the purpose of their lives.
Ah... so much for trying to keep the disturbing thoughts away!
Anyway, I feel charged!
The thought of getting up early tomorrow and going for a jog seems interesting to me now, isn't that something?! :D
There are times when you will feel very dejected in life, that is the time to stop whatever you are doing/trying to do, and get out there and get a breath of fresh air and a fresh outlook. The problem will no more feel in-surmountable!

This too shall pass!

When I was a little child, my little problems seemed impossible to deal with. I apparently smacked a lady's ass for blocking my view in a queue. How frustrated the little me must have been! Years later I wrote my board exams and was extremely worried when I realized that my solution to a math question was wrong. I came back home and tried to beat myself up.Later I did not get into BITS and it felt like the world cannot offer me anything that would bring joy to my heart. Well, that phase passed and I got into Qualcomm and got married ... and... this and... that.... 

My problems in the past always looked small compared to what I had to face today. I think that's the reason  why they compare life to a journey. As you keep moving ahead things/events that pass by look so insignificant compared to what is right ahead of you.

Well, the point is, the phase ALWAYS passes. 

And no matter what you want, no matter what you badly wish for, what has to happen will happen. Call it destiny, karma, coincidence, whatever!

There will be a day when things will make sense, when the worst times you have been through will not feel suicidal, when you will learn to be optimistic and accept that it was not your fault and you did the best you could..... 

And this a cycle, the moment you feel good or are ready to move ahead there will be some other problem waiting for you! But you know what, good or bad, this too shall pass!

It is time for the NEW!

Yes! It's my same old 'New' year resolution... to continue writing my blog.
Its 2013 and my last blog update says .. "Monday, February 14, 2011".... What the hell?!
Its only now am realizing that I haven't been doing so many things for a looooong time, and what amazes me is that, the things that I have given up on are the things that I actually love to do!
So WHY did I do something like this?
Well, simply put.... Neither am I a professional writer nor a dancer. So unless I strictly keep some time for myself its going to take me another two years to get started on it.
So what do we have here? A brand new new year resolution :D
I have learnt that unless I don't keep in mind that I am going to be supremely busy this year too and that expecting too much out of myself will just depress me, I am going to end up making impossible resolutions.
So lets keep it simple!
So this year...every sunday morning I am going to lie lazily on my bed and write a blog... and am going to attend a minimum of 2 of my dance classes per month.
Go ahead and brew up some possible, practical, fulfilling and not-hard-on-yourself resolutions!
A resolution which wont hammer your head! :)
yeah.. well... if you don't happen to hear from me for a certain number of sundays then please expect a depressing blog to follow!

Fly high !

Ever wondered what it takes,

To put up a smile that's fake.

Forcing yourself to be glued onto a place,

While your mind runs at a faster pace.

Encouraging your child to give his best,

Knowing what follows is a bigger test.

A fine hotel is where you are expected to dine,

But you cherish streetside food more than the wine.

Reciting your prayer religiously everday,

Without thinking if you mean what you say.

Learning an art with total dedication,

While another being your fascination.

It takes a heart that's not strong,

One which does not object what's wrong.

You compromise and always lie,

Ever wondered why you don't fly!!

jhoota (aka shoe) hi sahi !

What was I thinking? And what were the people who wrote reviews for this movie thinking? I mean ... OH MY GAWD ! This is like the worst movie of all times.

I am going to be point blank here because I dont want people to be mislead by those "kind" reviews for this movie.

First I would like to talk about the actress. Pakhi Tyrewala ! The wife of the director (no wonder!) and also the scriptwriter of the movie :O :O

This lady (I am giving her all the respect right now because my criticism is going to make her want to kill herself!) gave a tough competition to John Abraham. I did not understand who should I blame for the pounding headache I was experiencing in the theatre. Its not at all wrong to be flabby or to not have a perfect figure. But its a sin to wear some sleeveless gown-frock-drape kind of thing and move your flabby arms around when you dont even know how to dance. For the love of god, atleast try ... TRY... to look decent.

I would not blame the actress completely for a movie, thats unfair. So I would also like to blame the scriptwriter, oh wait a minute, that's her again ! Argh, seriously ?!

And am sure Abbas Tyrewala was just too scared that she will drop him dead with that arm of her's that he did not even try to tell his starcast to act.

Now coming to the "hero". Why is John Abraham like... umm... what's that word... eehhh..... FAT!!!

He is not cute, he is not handsome and his hands now seem to be too small or rather not proportional to his body. This guy first of all never ever knew how to act. But still girls would watch his movie because he was handsome amd dashing. Last night, the girl next to me went "ewwwww" on a close-up shot of John Abraham.

I rest my case your honor !

I spent 150 bucks on the movie.. and then another 100 bucks to eat something so I would not have to concentrate on the headache I was getting and then another 10 bucks for a tablet !

So please... pretty please... dont do this to yourself. Save your souls and even if this movie comes on TV please just dont watch it.